So I figured it’s time to put out an update on what’s going on in life since I’ve made a pretty huge change in it, which is: Moving into my first apartment.
I know, HUGE DEAL right?
It is, trust me.
But I can honestly say I’ve yet to be happier with myself than I am on my own. I have more energy, I’m getting shit done that needs to be done, there’s nobody yelling at me to do this or that. I can do things when I want to do them instead of when someone else wants me to. It’s liberating.
I don’t have to follow anyone’s rules in this tiny little apartment that I’m already calling home. It’s weird not having people around, but that’s about it as far as the negatives. I mean I reach out to people more now than I did when I was around my family. I interact with the world more. I have to do things on my own, and I LOVE that responsibility. I OWN IT.
It’s been a week now, and the only things I don’t have in my apartment are the futon I want to get from Ikea (Was going to get it today, but the snow made the roads bad, and the only person I know with a truck is my mom’s friend, and she wasn’t gonna ask to use it because of that) and a table, which I’m getting a twofer on because the one I’m getting doubles as a poker and pool table. Awesome right? Lemme know when you wanna get a game going :P
In other news I have thrown myself into the world of webcomics.
After finding a post on imgur of a short comic strip I went on a hunt to find the artist of said strip and I found web comic David Willis, who is utterly amazing and I love his art style and humor.
I marathoned his two current comics Shortpacked! and Dumbing of Age over the past week and I’m hooked. Great characters, great development with the story and characters, and it’s just amazing.
That’s about it though for everything that’s gone on since my last update. So until next time folks!
Red Like Roses
All right, I’m going to take a break from the anime-goodness that I’ve been posting on here to get a little real for a bit. So to the new followers that have jumped aboard this train recently, welcome to the REAL reason that this Tumblr exists haha.
So I’m moving out in t-minus…8 days. Getting my own apartment and everything, it’s a big change for me to be out on my own, but I’m going to be fine with that. The real problem here is me.
I’m not depressed anymore, but I’m still…broken? I don’t exactly know the right word for it. I’m happy with me, My life is great right now and it’s only getting better and I’m extremely happy with the way things are going.
I just can’t seem to figure something out, which is why I don’t FEEL anything for anyone anymore. Say that five times fast.
But yeah It’s like the emotional attachment part of my mind and heart has been completely shut off for me. It’s a weird feeling that I’ve been trying to describe, but the closest I’ve come to putting into words was comparing it to a car engine that just won’t turn over. I keep trying to feel SOMETHING. I guess it’s because of how things went down this spring? I’m not sure. My heart doesn’t flutter when I see a girl that I could like often, and when it does it goes away almost instantly like it was just a fleeting thought.
I’m not saying I’m completely shut off emotionally, I love my family, but anyone outside that is kind of getting the universal cold shoulder it seems.
Maybe it’s because I just don’t find anyone interesting? Or maybe I’ve resolved myself to the fact that I can’t fall for someone in PA? I guess I need to just put myself out there again and see what happens. I mean I’m making new friends with co-workers and they seem pretty chill, better than my old friends at least.
Anywho, that’s my thoughts for tonight. My little bro comes in to town tomorrow and I can’t WAIT! Gonna be nothing but video games, Doctor Who, and turkey for the next week :D